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Bird Clef

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Bird Clef

Composing With Nature Over a hundred years ago, F. Schuler Mathews wrote the book, Field Book of Wild Birds and Their Music.  It was a shocking kind of bird book: the author wrote out the notations of the bird songs on sheet music paper. Just like he was copying down a ditty that he had heard at the park and wanted to remember it. There were clef notations, key signatures, tempo indications, and even rhythmic markings.   Birds were to be considered, at least in this book, as real musicians. A hundred years later, Judy Pelikan adapted Mr....

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Psalm 61

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Psalm 61

The Path To Eternity Hear my crying, O God.  Hear my prayer. Father, although my hair is now streaked with white, I am still your child.  Stoop down from your vastness, lower yourself to my humble state, and listen to my whisper. From the ends of the Earth will I call on you when my heart is in heaviness. I cannot, will not stop calling out to you for what lays on my heart threatens to crush me. O set me up upon the rock that is higher than me, for you have been my hope and a strong tower for me against my enemy. Reach down your hand and lift...

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God Is My Being

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God Is My Being

Praying for the Dead What I mean by “the dead” are those people on Earth who have lived in such a deep pit of darkness for so long that it has become their home.   My question is, How do we pray for those who have lost their ability to know the truth about life?  That there is a sun.  Deep green forests.  Other people who have never lived in the deep.  I am trained to my bones to know that there is only one unforgivable sin.  All others can be forgiven.    But how do you forgive a shadow?  I am thinking especially about people who...

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I Am Who God Says I Am

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I Am Who God Says I Am

Breathing Space As I get older I appreciate more and more how orderly I am in my thoughts.  How I have carved events of my life out of its stream and did my best to put them where they belonged.   Somethings are best kept in chronological order, yes, but others have such a striking identity that they belong to other blocks with the same identity. Yes, I’m weird. But that’s the whole point of my life.  The extent to which I am weird. Organizing my life this way – by subject matter, I guess you could say – has given me a way of...

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A Strange Tail

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A Strange Tail

There is something magical about being somewhere for a period of time.  A long enough period of time to be able to know things about where you are. I once had a job in my biology teacher’s lab.  I measured seaweed.  A certain kind of seaweed. He was studying the effect on its growth by the warm waters being evacuated from the nuclear power plant on the coast. And as the summer drew along, with only the company of the classical music station as company, I learned that observation was a process all its own. The longer I looked at these...

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The Backyard, a return

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The Backyard, a return

I don’t know why such a simple thing like feeding the birds should make me feel so out-of-step with the rest of the world. It’s something I often feel. But bird feeding? It’s that our world has become obsessed with being special, I think. Special houses. Special cars. Special jobs. Special children. Nothing ordinary is tolerated any more.  Everyone has a specialty.  Or is supposed to. Everyone excels. It’s no wonder so many people seem lost.  They are searching for their wonder.  Their fulfillment.  Their bestness....

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The Backyard

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The Backyard

It has been many years that I have lived here. I came to live here in a most round-about way, and in spite of desperately wanting to leave for most of those years, here is where I have lived. Children have grown up.  Left.  Come back.  Left again. Usually leaving a cat or two.  Once even three. I live on the ground floor.  Except for the laundry room, the entire floor is mine alone. I read here. I eat here. I sleep here. I write here. It is my room. Only the laundry room end of the floor is underground. The back wall is all glass: windows and...

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Genesis 1:1 (part two): Creation

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Genesis 1:1 (part two): Creation

The Mystery of Nothing In the beginning God created the Heaven and the Earth. Creation.  The next concept after time is creation.  We are here at the beginning, and now creation begins. We tend to associate the concept of creation with the physical realm.  We create things. The first few verses of the Bible make it clear that these words describe that what was being created was the physical world. Before this point in time (and we can never really know whether or  not time, itself, was actually the first thing created by God or if it existed...

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Genesis 1:1 (part one): Time

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Genesis 1:1 (part one): Time

A Time to be Born In the beginning God created the Heaven and the Earth. There are two parts to this sentence, each with its own list of confounding, even overwhelming, questions.  So I begin with the first part: In The Beginning. In the beginning—there it is: Time. How did Time get here? Where did it come from? Was it the first thing God created? Even the concept “first” reinforces the idea that Time exists. Did Time just show up, all ready to go? Is there an end to finish up that which Time and God have just begun? Does a...

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Psalm 1

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Psalm 1

My Own Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor standeth in the way of sinners, nor sitteth in the seat of the scornful. Blessed silence. Blessed solitude. That wraps around her like an old family heirloom quilt. Something that matters. Something that is real. The separateness is real, too. As real as the sun. But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and in his law doth he meditate day and night. Moon and stars That want nothing to do with the day. That express themselves only when shrouded. Against a backdrop...

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My Limitations

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My Limitations

A Maze of Mirrors It’s almost effortless today to see what my limitation is. (There’s a joke in there somewhere.) It’s the fact that I cannot see. At least not in the real world. In the unreal world, I’m an absolute wonder. But here, with my feet sticking to Mother Earth, zip.  Nada. A big, fat zero. I think it was the way that I was brought up. To be always standing outside the ring of people before me.  I think it gave me a kind of spiritual vision problem. In life, I am far-sighted.   Now I see that I am far-sighted...

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My Sin

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My Sin

Right to the End My oft repeated transgression against God can be summed up very efficiently by one word: intransigence. It means unwilling to change my view. Absolutely unwilling. There have been three significant times in my life when I resolved to be the one who was right in the face of God. The first was when I was seventeen.  Having been told to, Come and do your work, I resolved, instead, to just slip out the spiritual back door of my life and go my own way. That basically didn’t work for me for a few years, but I persisted in it...

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Water Under Ice

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Water Under Ice

Everflow I walk on a trail through the woods behind where I live as often as I can.   As often as my body allows. And it is a truly wonderful thing. Because it makes my body stronger. And I’m out in the fresh air, which cheers me immensely. And I feel muscles in me working: muscles that haven’t really worked for a long, long time. I walk over a number of little wooden bridges that lift me a bit over whatever small stream happens to be crossing my path. I keep track of them.  As I do the squirrels that sometimes run alongside me,...

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Rainbows In The Dark

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Rainbows In The Dark

God is light. God is good. God is righteous. Can we really assign any adjective we want to to God? How can God be good if God created goodness in the first place? How can God be righteous if God is the very concept of righteousness? Isn’t this like writing, This tree is treeness? Well, yes it is, as a matter of fact.  But trees are treeness. But do we really need to say so? Ever? What is our need to heap adjectives on God, the meanings for all of which were created by God, all about? When I was a little girl, I used to sit in...

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Broken / Shattered

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Broken / Shattered

Smashing through our soul’s walls The process of spiritual growth is a process of growing out of the size and shape our souls are currently in. Invariably there is in a soul fears that are fed by ancient streams, the water in which comes from memories long forgotten. There are also beliefs that we know are wrong, but still hold fast to our bank of truths.  While outwardly we may conform to the “right” of things, inwardly we keep the secret of the wrong that we hold as one of our beliefs. We grow out of our souls. A...

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Primordial Love Poem

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Primordial Love Poem

(by Diane Wolverton) I want to adore your body just as it is. I want to adore every scar, every fold and crevice. I want to know every hair, where all your moles are, every corn on your foot, and especially the places that make you insecure so I can adore them most of all. I want to notice every part of you, like the undulating ocean of your eyes and love especially the right one when it gets tired and a little bit red. I want to know every place it feels good to touch, how much or how little, how soft, how hard, how fast, how slow. And once...

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Layered

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Layered

The trinity of me As I get older I see, more and more, that who I am today—who I have been every day of my life—was set absolutely as a child. Perhaps this is true of everyone.  Or perhaps some people slip through their childhood and develop their character as an adult.  Or keep recreating their character throughout their life. But this isn’t true for me. And in spite of the truth that I had always viewed myself as having two distinct personalities—two distinct Julias in the world—I have come to admit that there aren’t just two. ...

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Stained

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Stained

When the Lord shall have washed away the filth of the daughters of Zion, and shall have purged the blood of Jerusalem from the midst thereof by the spirit of judgment, and by the spirit of burning. (Isaiah 4:4) Vanity and cruelty.  Filth and blood. The power to wash.  The strength to burn. It is God’s responsibility to cleanse and purify our world after we have defiled it. Like children who have been left at home alone, and get into everything.  And leave a mess. Oblivious. Triumphant. We’ve done all this! But someone has to clean...

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Isaiah 55:8–9

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Isaiah 55:8–9

For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the Earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts. Yours and Mine It is an interesting world when you live, as I do, as a mystic. It goes along, with a semblance of normalcy, and then there is the inevitable wall. Which brings with it a drenching shower of confusion. I put into action, whenever I can, what I have been taught by God. Not that I don’t forget some of what I have...

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Ephesians 5:20

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Ephesians 5:20

Giving thanks always for all things unto God and the Father in the name of our Lord, Jesus Christ. Returning to childhood Giving thanks for everyone in the name of Jesus. It sounds like the lesson God, the Father, gave me as a young child, and one that lasted until I graduated from high school.  If not longer. You see this, Julia, it is all God.  It is all me. It was like being given a chance to work on the largest jigsaw puzzle in the universe. So my childhood was spent not getting the pieces to fit. The pairing that seemed right made no...

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